Wow, this is the first time i actually went for Ching Ming. My sis wanted to come back, but couldnt make it. At first i was worried, ok maybe not worried, but sort of dreading it; think i was trying to avoid and accept the fact. It hurts... badly. I like the fact that i dont need to think about, keep my mind occupied with much better stuffs then thinking of the past. Flashback of the past keeps these few days, when i realised i had to go for Ching Ming, flashbacks of the few days when the funeral was on, things that happened. I even remember one time i cried because i couldnt find our family photo. Dumb? Yup, i admit.

Today, we went to Xiao En (Nilai). I was driving, and i overshot the place. Maybe my mind was occupied that i didnt notice when we reaching, or subconciously i just wanted to avoid the place. I have no idea. So my mom told me to go up the next exit and try to U-turn. So we did, and to our horror, there was no U-turn. It was a straight road to KLIA. My mom was annoyed, she said she should have drove, but I insisted on it. So we really ended up near LCCT, and got to turn out to Nilai after that. It was a huge detour, from Nilai to KLIA to Nilai again. I even passed by INTI college. It took us an extra hour to reach there. To my surprise, i wasnt even the slightest irritated or pissed, i was actually really calm. I didnt bother about the delay, instead i was feeling ok about. After an hour, we reached there. We went to visit him before my grandma. When i stood in front, there was this feeling gushing through. I was feeling sad, but i didnt feel the sharp ache i felt 9 months ago, the feeling that i just need to scream my head off. Today, the feeling was numb. I realised that I actually accepted that fact, the fact that he is no longer here.

Ok. Enough about the sappy stuff, thinking less is always good.

I got a dog, an useless dog to be exact. It doesnt bark at strangers, it just wags its tail. Well, this wasnt my decision, it was my mom. She decided to keep a dog, since she is free now.
This is Andy :)