Back again..n again...n again...

Wow, last post is a year ago. LOL, seeing me this time wont last long anyway. Just need something to happen before it kills my mood to blog.

Well, the one year i was missing, was one hell of a year. Things happened which practically made a drastic change to my life,the biggest twist to be exact. Things can never be the same as it used to be. Things change i know, and lifes go on.. Yup, easier said than done. Im glad to say i can say im actually healing from it, letting the past be the past. Took me 9 months; it is really long, but in between more events happened too, so i guess the hole just gets deeper. But im climbing out, seeing the light soon enough. All i need is something to drastic, be occupied and busy, think less and life goes on really fine.

So yup, one year. I grew matured (according to my mother), which means i've been a 'baby' before this, no idea whether it is a compliment. I feel that i do think and do things differently,maybe cause im forced to grow up and grow out of my comfort zone, which makes me really hate it sometimes that things have to change.

Quick update on the crappy year. Although 'it' happened (i still dont feel comfortable mentioning wat 'it' is- deja vu), i manage to live on, managed to finish my year 1 with not much problem, although it was really hectic in sem2. :) I did an internship in a computing company, which totally distracted me again. Which makes me think again, maybe i am not healing, i have been just avoiding. Nevertheless i shall avoid as long as i can, and soon it will be out of the picture.
Crap, im being all sober. Gotta face reality!!

Anyway, 3 months of working really built up my interest in computing. I decided firmly that i wont venture into that field when i first started. Now i have stopped working, i kinda reminiscence the working period. I am starting to have doubts. :( But lucky, im learning computing this semester, we shall see how things go then.

So how am I? Everyone said i grew skinnier, and soon i might just vanish, which i still dont believe. My weight never changed. 42kg then, still 42 kg. Sam's philosophy: Maybe u grew more muscles instead of fats. Im not sure about that, but she is the one studying Bio, not me.

*Hopefully i continue blogging*.....