It was last year since i last blogged. I guess my old sickness is back; too lazy to blog. Well, i did not see the need to blog. I do not need to release any suppressed anger or tension, unlike last year. And i am sort of too occupied with college, with the work and everyting.

When i started college this year, i felt i was rushing through it. A part of me felt like starting college, but another part of me felt like waiting and chilling. I needed more time to relax after SPM(can't consider the one month after SPM, i was busy most of the time). I needed more time to recoup. i ignored the feeling. But this feeling became stronger when the tests came. I felt lost and stress again, i felt like quiting everything and just do nothing. Obviously there is no way my dad would let me do it. One thing i was sure that the 4 Dec deja vu left an impact on me. But one way or another, i need to confront this feeling. I guess this only was to succumb this fear is on the March 12. Everything will have to end then.


Sam is calling everyone 'lansi'. Wonder when she started with that word. I was another victim of her besides F. I was innocent and did nothing.
S: I need one more mark. You spare me one mark la.
L: Take lo. Doesn't matter.
S: Not that it is possible anyway.
Next thing i know it she is telling everyone about this. You do the judging, am i 'lansi'?
(0mission or change of words shall be excused)

Old habits die hard. I agree with this saying. Sam habit of promoting my marks to everyone in CBN has been brought to Taylors. She is still promoting my marks for me. NO! Worst of all, she is not in my class, so now her class knows everything. Even my classmates dont make such a big deal over it.