Yay! I survived. 3 days with no contact with the outside world. No INTERNET and TV. There was my handphone, but didn’t message anyone at all, except someone from the camp. Still, it is considered no contact with the outside world. And to add to the misery, it was a 3 consecutively of Chinese with no English. It was amazing how I survived.

For the last three days I was in a camp. Wushu camp to be exact. It was conducted in Genting Permai. Unknown to many, including me, Genting Permai is actually quite near to Genting Highlands. Actually it is near Awana. I didn’t know such places existed, as usually we would just drive up to Highlands. The place was ok actually. It was an apartment. And CW was being nice. They appointed 3 people one room which I thought wasn’t the best idea as one apartment could actually fit 5 and it would be just nice. To be frank, such a spacious place plus Genting was not exactly infamous for it’s ‘unsightly incidents’, it gave me the creeps, a little. I was appointed to stay with these two teachers of all luck. How boring! But ya there was nothing I could do but to accept it. The apartment we had had 2 rooms, one with double singles and one with queen bed. And guess what, I got the master bedroom, the one with queen size bed while the two teachers took the singles and slept together. Weird right? I agree. This was because they were scared to sleep alone. *smirk*

The first day, was nothing much. We were listening to lectures which basically I could understand nuts. At night we had to watch ‘Fearless’, which reminds me of our dance at the interact installation. Seeing in the second time was seriously boring and the part where they played it in Mandarin didn’t help much. I was seriously bored and the sit was so uncomfortable. I kept fidgeting during the whole show. Lucky for me, I brought chocolates and sweets to keep me awake.

Second day was moderate. The lectures were more. Practically the whole day we were listening to lectures. And it was really hard to comprehend. Sam knows how bad is my Chinese so ya, she wont be surprised to know I suffered much and how blur and confused I was during the whole thing. Thank goodness they had this telematch, which boosted our spirits. It was fun. There was 3 groups: A, B, and C. A and C group was having a dispute. I was in B. We were being very quiet and ‘gentlemen’ while we look on the other two groups fighting each other, criticizing each other. During the telematch, my group loss anyway. The other two groups tied, much to our dismay. And started arguing again. *Sigh* TCH and I just looked and laughed. We expected to lose, seeing that we had so many sleeping partners, 5 to be exact. During dinner, they found a way to decide the winner, through counting the age of the members, which in my point of view was a weird way to decide a winner. But whatever, doesn’t concern me. So at last, the winner was decided. A group!!! It was a good thing anyway, or else Unc Tim, would never give it a rest and there would be no peace for all of us. He started to provoke the C members though. Lolz. No offense, but he was kinda childish. That night we had a program which is called ‘Star Heart Talk’. God knows how they came up with this name but it is actually a program where you confess anything. Heart to heart talk. Except everyone hears you not one person only. After so many times of attending such a program, this one was a success. A few actually said stuff, a few cried. Unfortunately I was one of the crying people. Wow! Its been years since I actually cried. But ya, I was surprised. It is not always you will see the other side of these people. Being all emotional and sharing a part unknown to all of us. Yet, it was really vague and no one could comprehend anyway. Through this heart to heart talk, I started to realize there was something, something that I have suppress so long subconsciously it was like a problem I have been avoiding so long, not willing to face it at all. I broke down. I just felt so pressured. Serene and SL broke down too. Then we left that place and had our own talk. It was a relief to let out everything though. And I got to know someone better.

Third day was the most exciting and fun day. We went jungle trekking. It was fun, and the tracks were quite challenging. The only sucky part was the leeches. So many bitten me, I don’t know why. I thought I had 2.then today when I was watching the tv, I saw another red mark. Then only I realized I got sucked 3 times. =s Among all the jungle treks I went I enjoyed this the most. Maybe it is because of the company.There were some funny memories also. The whole trek was kinda hilarious at times. *smirk*

I really enjoyed the whole camp, although at times it was really boring at times. It was a good gateaway from all my problems. I really thank everyone for it. *looking with watery eyes*. It was a blast.

After the camp, we went out for dinner. My mom was not exactly keen of the idea though, but she was kinda cool about it when I came home though. Thank goodness.

Ever since i finished my exam on Friday,i was seldom at home until today.Everyday going out.Yesterday was a very tiring day.I was in CW the whole day,from 8.30am to 6pm.Then i came home,showered,ate and slept for a pathetic 10 minutes,and went to Sg Wang to celebrate Ren's birthday and blade.It has been a long time since i actually roller-bladed.I think the last time i baded was when i was in primary.Even Jill and Sheel last bladed when they were in primary.We dropped blading and started to ice-skate when we were in secondary.So yesterday it felt quite weird without the ice.

Ren's invitation was in a very weird way.It started with a message saying,"Are you coming tonight?"I was seriously confused,thinking she messaged the wrong person.I replied,"Huh?What's happening to night?" ""My birthday" Then i was more confused,because Jill told me Ren was throwing a birthday party on Friday.Takkan the message delayed by 3 days. "Hmm...what birthday?Im confused" "Didnt you get my message?" "No." I think she wanted to vomit blood by then(If it was Sam she sure vomit blood already!)I was extremely blur by then.Lolz.Sorry for that, i was extremely tired then.And the part where someone started sending me forwarded message in Chinese doesnt really help alot.

But it was fun roller-blading AGAIN.Making me miss my blades now, currently buried somewhere in the store.=s

Talking about smokers (after reading Fern's blog), i realise i can be quite mean to them.I saw this cigarrete packet lying on the table in someone's room and I quickly took the packet and hid it.I wanted to throw the whole packet in the dustbin at first,but i felt bad.So i left it on the table outside his room.The guy was finding everywhere for his packet,even under the bed.Serene and I were trying to refrain from laughing.He looked at me and said,"I know you took it,you never liked me smoking". I tried giving my innocent look but i guess i am just bad in it.He knew.But i was fun though,looking at him finding for his packet.=p You all should try that,at least they would not smoke in front of you.

I didnt know it was an unwritten rules that u always update ur blog.*sigh*

Lolz.I jz read Sam's blog.This is what we call desperate.And to say last time she wasnt the type who watch english series movies.Now she have a craze over it.But u gotta admit,Heroes is addictive.So is Prison Break.These are the two must watch movie.If you missed it,u r losing out.

I shall just give a short update about what happened lately since im tired already.

I have been driving to college since i got my license.And it is under no supervision.I wont say i sucked at driving,neither wont i brag about my skills.After i few times of almost-accidents,i am becoming more scared and sceptical about my driving skills.But my parents seem to have more faith in my skills than i am(i think).Which is really weird,seeing that normally it works the other way.

A week ago,i was buried under the books,wait not books but piles of past mid-year exam papers,getting ready for my mid yr exams.The week was a long and tiring week, but i survived.Unfortunately,my answers are screwed up.I did dumb and stupid mistakes.Im glad that week is over.I really need to have these two weeks of Break.Although i still have tons of work to do,but ya beggers are no choosers.It is better than nothing.

I am now known as a banana.Great.I know chinese ok?I even know how to read and write,unlike a lot of real banana which i know =p And those people keep making fun of my chinese.I know i pronounciation is a little out,ok mayb a little more than little,fine it is out,but at least it is understandable.It reminded me when that time Sam asked me to read Shien Jean chinese test paper.Sam jz burst out of laughters.Am i that bad????I do have an english slang,but thats just it.

I will be having this short 3 days chinese crash course this weekend where i'll listen to nothing but chinese,speak nothing but chinese,from the 1st June to 3rd June.At Genting,down the mountain actually.Genting Permai.I have no idea where is it,i just know i wont be going to Highlands.Nooo.....It's been so long......

Pirates of the Carribean 3 was good.Considering the fact that i totally forgot Pirates 1 and didnt even watch Pirates 2,i was not that confused after the show.Maybe it was cause i had Jill and Sam to fill me up.Although both of them were blur too."Eh why do they want Jack?", "Dunno,dont remember!" Fine,just accept it,and watch hot and sexy guys, and the fighting scenes.Surprisingly,it was humourous too.I had fun that day.I went to the arcade after how many ages ago.My rock-fever skills totally went down the drain.It was disastrous. I cant even play the simplest song.But im glad that my shooting and racing skills are still there.I managed to pass area 1 for Time crisis 3 without feeding the machines with tokens.Yay!!!Racing skills werent as good though.I keep crashing into Sam's car.Sam's machine had a little problem.So her car werent moving.Then whenever i banged into her car,she would quickly drive the car,hoping it would start moving.It was hillarious looking at her.

That's all for now.I gotta sleep,i have to wake up at 8.On a SUNDAY.Imagine!

I do not deny the fact that i have been neglecting this blog. Neither would i deny the fact that i have not been keeping in touch with alot of people. I have been to busy, with college and wushu. This two stuff occupied most of my time.

I am going to make this post short. Just a short post until i am free. Soon hopefully. Next two weeks is my mid-year, and i would have a two weeks break after that. I would be free except 1-3 June. Anyone, want to go out and meet up?Talk, drink, watch a movie?

A lot of people are updated about happening in college, rite? Sam does a good job as a reporter still. =p

My crazy dad is more enthusiastic about my results than I am. He actually took 15 copies of the Sun. Talk about obsessive. He called me more than 10 times from yesterday since i got my results. He keeps calling and calling, and asking and telling, i am going to have a headache soon.

People who are greedy are never satisfied with what they have. They just want more, more than what they have.Even though it is adequate, they are never happy. They become more unhappy as they dont get what they want. Why those such people exist? Why can people just be content with what they have? Why?Why? I feel tired with all the chasing and competing, yet I refuse to give up. Is this what they call 'kiasu'? Or you just want to try your best when you are attempting something?

I feel a sense of relief and solace, now that the results are out. But, there is still something, but i dont know wha tis it. Hopefully, this would be the past. Yet, it determines the future. I need to let it go.

Wow, i cooked a proper meal today. What an achievement! Although this home cook food is not healthy at all, with extra oil and extremely salty. I guess it is not bad for a first timer, as i didnt burn the whole kitchen down.

Things i learned:

1. Never throw a fish into a frying pan. This could cause a pool of oil.
   
2. Never try toflip a fish when u are a yard away from the pan, u cant flip it.
   
3. Wear gloves and cover your hand when you are frying a pan.
4. Never let my sister cook. She tends to throw everytying in, salt, soya sauce, oyster sauce, pati ayam....apparently to add taste.
   
5. Never trust her when it comes to cooking.Lousy pandu puteri.
6. Try not to make a mess out of the kitchen.

Definitely this is one of the worst meal i eaten.Hopefully i dont grow skinnier in this one month. It is impossible to gain weight. And i seriously have to gain weight, just in case i really go Australia next year. I dont want to get blown away by the wind. It almost happened to my sister, she felt like she was going to fly, and she is heavier than me.

It was last year since i last blogged. I guess my old sickness is back; too lazy to blog. Well, i did not see the need to blog. I do not need to release any suppressed anger or tension, unlike last year. And i am sort of too occupied with college, with the work and everyting.

When i started college this year, i felt i was rushing through it. A part of me felt like starting college, but another part of me felt like waiting and chilling. I needed more time to relax after SPM(can't consider the one month after SPM, i was busy most of the time). I needed more time to recoup. i ignored the feeling. But this feeling became stronger when the tests came. I felt lost and stress again, i felt like quiting everything and just do nothing. Obviously there is no way my dad would let me do it. One thing i was sure that the 4 Dec deja vu left an impact on me. But one way or another, i need to confront this feeling. I guess this only was to succumb this fear is on the March 12. Everything will have to end then.


Sam is calling everyone 'lansi'. Wonder when she started with that word. I was another victim of her besides F. I was innocent and did nothing.
S: I need one more mark. You spare me one mark la.
L: Take lo. Doesn't matter.
S: Not that it is possible anyway.
Next thing i know it she is telling everyone about this. You do the judging, am i 'lansi'?
(0mission or change of words shall be excused)

Old habits die hard. I agree with this saying. Sam habit of promoting my marks to everyone in CBN has been brought to Taylors. She is still promoting my marks for me. NO! Worst of all, she is not in my class, so now her class knows everything. Even my classmates dont make such a big deal over it.