Everyone is stressed over the same thing.SPM.It is rather obvious that SPM is closer than all of us thinks.Everyone is in a foul mood.Some chose to keep it discreet,some like to express it.Some loses their appetite,some snaps at people,some just cries while some keep all to themselves as if nothing is happeinng.

I am not excluded too.The stress is unbearable.Sometime i wish i can go back time and restart the whole year and re-live it.The pressure is doubling,and the hopes are unavoidable.

Everyone seems to know,cant they just leave me alone?I have enough of it and you are adding to my pile.I dont need it,dont want it,and if i cant choose just ignore it.

I found out,all the PJ school are doing realy well,thrashing it alot of events.Today was the finals for the Inter-School Accounting Quiz by Taylor's.We didnt manage to get a single placing.Nevertheless,congrats to those who won.They won fair and square.

I seemed to ignore everything now.The whole commottion has came to an end.I hope.I just have to be the guinea pig and eat up all the accusation,although it can be rather absurd.Whatever it is,everything is coming to an end.It doesnt matter anymore,as everyone would says.The split-into-half Prefectorial Board shall be gone in another 3 weeks.The junior board will take over,hope they do a good job and nothing will happen.

It is time to buck up and do something about.Lazing around will not get me anymore.Reminders has come and go,signs has appeared too.Everyone is worryinh about one thing now!!!And i am still so relax.I have studies to catch up,grades to mark up and promises to keep. But i am not doing anything.

I better go rot and think about it.Maybe what Sam is doing is right.Maybe i should not come online too.My conscience is telling me something...and I should listen to it.

I know i accused someone for something she didn't do.But somehow she contributed to it too.I just found out the truth today.So yes,i was wrong.

I felt disappointed with her again.As they say,'As time goes by,the wound heals'.It is just like antibodies,after being attacked with the same antigen for so many times,it builds up a immune system that can fight it.Too much Bio?I totally agree.
I hope i have this invisible sheild where it could just protect me from everything.

It takes courage to say you are sorry.A lot of it.When you did something wrong or commited a crime.But you can say sorry too even if you are not wrong..I hope you heard that clearly.

I got my adopted and she is rather keen of the jobs.Haha.It is a good and positive sign.Her expression when i told her about the backdrops was like,"Yikes".About the 'meja hadiah.Jaw dropped.Told her how picky both the teachers,her jaw practically fell to the ground.Hehe.Enjoy ya.It would be a worthwhile year after that.There are the downs but also the ups.

I just had the extra reminding SPM is nearer than i thought it was.It is end of Jun,July is starting.We have 2 months for form 4 revision and another 2 for Form 5 before our Trials.SPM is getting nearer and i am not aware of it.All of a sudden,there is this urge of helplessness in me.I feel i might not be ready for my exams.I might not score my straight A's for SPM.Today our Biology teacher asked us,who here scored straight A's.No one raised her hands.She starting saying by this time last year there were 17 straight A's students.I just felt scared and hopeless.Maybe taking Biology was not a good idea.Sigh.I dont know.I have no idea what i can and can't do now.I wish to restart this whole year,return to the past,and live this whole year again.Maybe things would change.

Great,half the board hates me.How comforting?But look on the bright side,at least half still doesn't hate me.This is thanks to the contribution of someone,saying that i dont do my job yet take the credit.Ii hope i would never see her or have to work with her anymore.Why must she walk into my life?Life was so much better without her.People ask me to remain oblivious,and i am trying.It is not that i intentionally make myself pissed at her,but she does piss me off.I calmed down when i went home.Heard this song which goes,"Shut up in your face.It doesnt matter."I just smiled to myself,remaining oblivious is the only way out.Believing in what you think is right and thats what matters.

After the Speech Day,i saw 2 different side of 2 person.One good one bad.One teacher one student.I saw a different side of this teacher.Many students dislike her but she was rather ok to me.And i enjoyed working with her,compared to some others.Then this student which caused many misery to everyone,and chaos.Wonder how she can be such a hypocrite?

Pn Nancy,"Thank you.You all did a good job."Dedicated to:Farah,Jill,Sasha and Sam.Not forgetting Lavy,Nelly,Shien Jean,LiLi and the other prefects who helped.Thanks.

The uge of stepping down gets stronger and i just can't wait for that day to happen.After that,it is full strive for SPM.Nothing is getting my way,i hope.

My Head

Everybody needs a head.And the head plays a very important role,it controls everything in life.It controls the body movement and how everything functions.And if the head functions well,the body follows too.But if the head goes haywire,the body follows too.This principle applies to everything in our life.From ourselves,to a committe,to a community then to a country and later together as human beings living in this world.

I declare i'm sick.Thanks to 2 whole stressful,tiring and pissing weeks.I'm down with fever,flu,headache and sore thraot.Great!I want and insist to go to school on Monday,the campaign will be on.but my mom say if i'm not feeling well,i am not to go.Sigh.Once a year once and i have to miss it?NO!Theres no way i'm missing it.

Today was Speech Day.Everyone asking me not to panicked,especially the teachers.I was rather clumsy today but i was not panicking it was because i was sick,tired and extremely blur.I was sniffing the whole day.And some people dont appreciate what we do,and start making stupid comments and remarks."Dont do all the pose la","You never help out","Ask you to do things,sure got alot of complains".I dont mind not getting any appreciation and credit for what i do,but please dont make all this stupid remarks.It just made me not help at all.All the carrying and helping is wearing out.I am sick for your info,yet i stayed back and helped out while some prefects went back early,went home and shopping.There was no "thank you" and "good job".I dont mind.I do have high hopes on you anyway.But the last thing i need is the stupid comments.

I'm glad some people actually appreciate what i do.They thanked me and thats enough.I'm happy and satisfied.Is it that hard?I find it rather hard working withor for you.And i'm glad i'm stepping down soon.I'm sick of all this,crap and nonsense.The gossips,'tunjuk muka's',back-stabbing etc.Everything is coming to an end,and i am glad.

Whee.All 5 important event is over.And everything is over.Im glad.A big burden has lifted of my shoulder.And yes,for your info,the ceritificates presentation went smoothly.And i'm glad you weren't there.No regrets.

A story about this gurl part 2

You cant just stop pissing me off can't you?I did so many things.Yes it might not be obvious,but definitely you have no right to comment about me anything.You of all people,who's contribution can be counted in one hands,want to complain about my contribution to the prefectorial board.You have no right at all.You dare to say
1. I did not to my job/work
2. I misused my power,asking those under my community to do my dirty work
3. When teacher praised why so nice,i claimed it is my work.

As far as i am concerned,no teachers praised me for anything before and i never take all the credit.Everything is team work.Please I would say everyone.If you were not there,please SHUT UP,and keep it to yourself.You have no right to say anything,you are not under my community,let alone ever help me at all.So please do me a favour and keep your stupid remarks to yourself.You are not so lucky everytime,as when you b**** about Pn Haida so loud,lucky for you Pn Khor was there,or i cant imagine how you would be now.

I dont mind if i dont get the credit,i never do.But please i have my limits,stupid remarks like this just makes me peeved.If your hardwork is not appreciated never mind,but if you spent your bloody time,skipping classes when you should be studying,and getting accused for not do anything.I just have to say you gone too far.....You gone too far.....

A story about this gurl

It's all about being right although she is wrong.It's always about keeping her face,although she knows that is not that point.It is about covering the truth and spreading the rumors.Always about making yourself look right all innocent while actually you are not.It is always about sabotaging,backstabbing and bitching.How can someone has so many flaws yet dont feel ashamed of it?Feeling no remorse over whatver you have done,yet can be thick face enough the put the blame on others,pointing your fingers on some other people,acting as if it was not your fault at all.Never in my life have i seen such a person,and regretfully im telling you,you are sad.You are such a hypocrit,people around you will become one too.Going around,whining to everyone,twisting the whole story to your benefit.You had the benefits of the doubt,as they only know one side of the story.But if you choose to do so,i am hopeless and helpless but to say,I'm sorry,but you are sad.You are bringing misery into people life,how i hope you never walk into my life,never cross my path,deleting you from my life would be the happiest thing i could do and never left a single footprint.

IF the teachers can say you are wrong,you cant be far away from wrong.You are definitely not right.Yet you make it sound as if you are right.Making me look bad,twisting the story,is the only thing you could do,as you know you are wrong.Spreading rumors about me,saying how pathetic you were.They bought it and i congrats you.Coming to me,talking to me as if nothing happened.The sorry and normal talk was just an act,so unconciously you can poison me behind my back and i dont even know what is happening,even though i already half poisoned.Eff you,you are causing misery.If it is me alone never mind,but stay out of my friends.I am on this cliff,being shove by you. and I would go through hell with you,if you try somemore.And you would not be a nice scene,as the Chinese proverb,'Never offend a woman'.

You contributed a little.A L-I-T-T-L-E.And you want to make a big deal out of it?You think contributed alot?Now i tell you,people have help more than you,and they arent even in the committee,so why are you in then?Should i demand a switch?Damn right i should.I see no reason why i shouldnt.Nevertheless you did help me,and i would like to say a Thank You.You helped loads with the backdrop.And many people liked it.But it is a bloody different story.There is no such thing as credit transfer here.One thing is one thing,you can just say because i help this this this then i want to do that that that.There is no such thing.And yes,you actually were allowed to be in the committee again,but teacher say no.So what does this proves?Only you know best.

I am stressed,tired and pissed.Signs of being a bitch.And you have to give extra kick.I have been stressed out for two bloody weeks.Teachers' Day,Prefect Gathering and Speech Day,which used to be a day to have fun and enjoyed is not only what i am feeling.STRESSED AND TIRED OUT filled the whole week up.I have been missing classes too.Even my monitor knows.Yes,my grades are above averages,but still?That doesnt mean i no need to go into class.Thanks to some smart people,which i wonder how she aggregate jobs,making herself sound as if she was right and fair.I had to do the bloody backdrop for two events,plan the games for two events,preparing the things needed.This week,backdrop,which Im really sorry,i could not careless,gave the job to Farah,giving out the ceritificates,practicising going out stage,arranging them,checking them and numbering them.At one point,i had to be at 3 places at one time,stage,conference room and bilik seni.Hello,im a human i cant possibly be at 3 places at one time.Dont be ridiculous.

She wanted to complain when she just tied the ribbons,whoa,i cant live without her.So people like Lavy,Nelly,Sasha,Jill and LiLi are what?Please.If you want to compare,you are not even 10%,and i think i gave you too much credit too.Please la,you have not right to say anything people whoever who helped me?Jill did loads and you have not right to say she didnt.Buzz off.She definitely did way more than you.Loads more.

You had to go tell everyone that i scolded you in front of the whole class.Hello?During moral class,i doubt if even half the class,heard the so-called-scoldings.And i think the half the class you heard,dont even think it was a scolding,they thought it was a normal conversation.Even hazel said so,and she is the soft type.People who heard think you are over sensitive and everyone are shocked they you actually made such a small thing into a big deal.And now people,prefects and students think im the bad guy,while you are the poor little princess who got scolded terribly.Thanks alot to you.Not only that,people are also saying,"I better do this before she starts to scold me for not doing anything." Bloody hell.Whats you problem?Get a life.If you are that desperate for the jobs,which i think a few teachers are thinking that way too,just tell me,i would gladly give it to you.This job is not the most enjoyable job there is.

I'm glad i have friends who i can lean on during this period and sad to say,i doubt you have any real one.So just want to say,"I'm Sorry"