Life and death is a natural cycle of life. Yet, what is worst than death but the thought that you would no long be remembered?No longer be able to hold the person you once love so much?No longer put your arms around the shoulder of one's who needs it so much?

It is not until the time where you actually lose that someone that you feel the pain and sorrow. You start to wonder about the past. What would have been different in the past, if you managed to changed it? Then what the present would be like if you changed it? What will be the future then? Yet, there's nothing you can do.

As the day reaches, you start to realise and accept that death is actually a phase that must occur.But you cant help but to feel the helplessness, feel that you miss the person; all kinds of memories start to flood your mind: happy, sad, bitter, sweet... You feel the need and urge to be able to grab hold of that someone one more time, at least for one last time...But you can't.You are drown in your own sorrow.

But, life goes on.The person is gone, but the memories stay. It is the memories that keep the person alive, always there in your heart, mind, and soul.

Let the past be the past.The past remains the past; what is most important is the present and future. Cherish the present and not left yourself regret for the present; and hope and work hard for the future, as there always is a future to look forward to.

*Forget regret or life is yours to miss*

You are in a forest.Lost in it. You continue to walk but you have no idea where does the path leads you to. You want to give up, but giving up is not an option. If you give up, then you can never achieve what you yearned for. Yet, in this forest,there are many trees and bushes, and sometimes they have sharp thorns. You feel trapped. Helpless. You are hurt and injured. And this journey would just get harder and harder. The way out is not anywhere near sight.

God, this post is too sappy......

Then you realise, you have everything you need. This journey might be difficult, but with these extra 'help', it might be that hard after all. The sun starts to shine, and everything just seems so conspicuous after all.

Life was never easy, but remember when god closes a door, he opens a window. You just need to know that someone always has your back, and that someone would never mind lending you a hand or a shoulder, and this make all the difference in the world. So, "Just do it!!!"

Now i gotta stop......This is getting out of hand.......

Sometimes friends are like mirrors. They are one's reflection. Reflection of one's emotion. They might not understand what is happening, but yet they feel sad when you are sad.

STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!

I gotta admit that my classmates are nuts. For NL birthday, they actually bought a box of condoms. Weird huh? they wanted the whole class to sign on it. So how to do sign on something that small? Fitting 27 names in 12 of it. Well, they blew it and then we signed. Gross? I totally agree. I know it has fruit taste and a little oily, but the thought of your mouth having contact with it, is just disgusting. Im glad i wasnt blowing...... =p

Last week was cold war.This week was the war where Pearl Habour gone bombed and everyone was caught off guard. Surprised with the suddent attack.

It was all in the name of 'FUN',to celebrate one's birthday,to let her enjoy this once a year occasion.Yet everything seemed to backfired. Some of the plans were even cancelled before we could actually 'exhibit' it. Worst, there was an aftereffect of this 'fun'. This is the 2nd time in this month that a misunderstanding occurred and i am to take the blame for initiating this 'war'.

Talking about wars,i just realised i am quite prone to accident.Over the weekend i managed to sprained my ankle,wounded one knee,bruised the other,sprained the my left fingers and injured my arm.Was I involved in a fight?Nope.Accidents just like to come my way.=s

3 days of holidays end.NO!!!3 days is insufficient but holidays are never enough.But these 3 days just passed so fast.

During independence day,instead of the usual watching the TV,we decided to play badminton.I have been addicted to badminton recently.Playing it at least thrice a month.I had not played badminton since ages ago.I forgot how i used to play badminton with my mom when i was young outside our house.That was the only sports we do together,as she does not play basketball at all.we played for 2 and a half hour.And i wanted to continue to play after that,i guess i was extra hyper and energetic that day. After badminton,we headed to Times Square.We ate at this restaurant called the 'Five Treasure'.I was really peeved when they forgot my order.After 3 reminders only they served me my meal.I was going to start crapping in English if my order didnt come,as i was really hungry and annoyed.Thank god,someone shared her food with me or my temper would be worst. I guess that day was just not my day,somehow Baskin Robbins managed to messed my order up too.I order a pint with fruit citrus and choc mousse royale.But instead of giving me my Choc Mousse Royale,it turned out to be some ice cream with coconut taste with NUTS.Extra eww.Then at night my mom and i had dinner at Japan Club.And the service was really bad that day.They totally didnt serve us,didnt even give us the menu until we asked it for a millionth time,fine 3 times.Argh!!! But besides all the lousy food services, i enjoyed the whole day.

PS We should do this more often. =p

This year's birthday is the most memorable birthday! I had a great time! Thanks to everyone who contributed to this year 'birthday bash'. I will always remember you guys.

The celebration started on the 28 August 2007. I went to 1U with my CW friends. We had dinner at BBQ Plaza, which Jing Bangs and I went for our outing to 1U.It brought back memories *reminiscence the past *.I remember that time Sam was our 'mother'.She cooked for us, and 'forced' us to eat our vegetable (which tastes awful). Back to the present, we went there for dinner. TCH,LYK,SY,SL,KW Serene was there. Sue picked me up.Then when she drove out, heading towards Old Klang Road,she was flagged down by the police for driving on the bus lane.While she was trying to turn out but she could not and she was sort of distracted with a phone call.Somehow she managed to escape but as a consequence her wallet was empty.I felt guilty.Although she did not say anything,but one way or another,indirectly i was related to her unfortunate event. When we reached 1U,everyone was there. It was kinda funny, as cooking was never my major.I am just bad at cooking.And being afraid of having food poisoning, i had to ask whether the meat was cooked everytime i cooked something. I think they got peeved with me after a few times. Then after dinner, they took out this immensely huge box and asked me to open it.It was rather suspicious.I was afraid that something was going to jump out the moment i opened the box,so i hesitated for a moment.When i opened the box ajar,suddenly they all shut the box.Started saying,sorry technical error.Then they had this baffled look on their face.After a while, they said,"Ok pretend that nothing happened this now and you are playing with your phone.Then opened the box again!".As they say second time a charm,but when i opened up the box,i just saw this 'protruding' black stick among the stacks of color paper.I heard some noises,then i pushed the papers aside,carefully just incase there is something that bites.Next thing i know,i was staring at a black and white robot.I was speechless for words.A ROBOT!!!Damn cool.I would never imagine a robot for a present.After the opening of presents, exchanging of photo's we headed home.Then something happened again. There was this small Cold War happening.And I was the cause again indirectly(although they try to deny it). Being the timid self i am,i choose to remain silent the whole journey.Guilt and fear was the two company i had on my journey home.Yet, i heard Cold War ended, and everyone is living peacefully again! (Hopefully *cross fingers*)

The alarm was ringing and i tried to open my eyes.Ouch.painful.I am just too tired.Sleeping at 1 playing with my robot was not a very wise idea i guess but what the heck,once a year,i dont give a damn!I checked my hp, 6 messsages.Ignore first!I gotta get ready.Then my mom came in,gave me my present and this card.No offense but the card was those song card,and i dont really like those time,especially when it is played in the morning.It justs spoils the serenity.She gave me an ear ring and asked me to take mine out.After much effort and PAIN,i decided to wait for another week before i am ready to complete this task. The whole day in college was filled with much embarrassment ad fun.My classmates sung once in Chem class,thrice in Old Town Kopitiam,once in LAN class (with 2 others classes) after our presentation,once in Maths class and thrice after class.I wonder why they like to sing birthday songs so many times.After classes we went to Baskin Robbins.They were having 31% off.Whee!!!Choc Mousse Royale is De Bomb!

Today, after classes, i came back from the toilet.Everyone started looking at me.I was bewildered.Then i took my bag,wanting to leave when i caught side of a flower.But there was something special about this flower,it has words on it.Then looking close up, i saw "Happy Birthday' in the middle of the flower.I was speechless again!Birthday flower card!How cool can it get?I really have to salute Melissa for her creativity and Esther of her brilliant idea.One word explains everything,"Cool!".

I am just touched,so many people made an effort to make my birthday a memorable one.Thank you,i had a great time. Thanks once again!!Thanks for the card,the cake,the handmade brownies (no nuts next time),the jellies (YUM!), the sing-alongs, the presents,the surprises and last but not least,the ROBOT!=p

*Pictures are uploaded in Friendster.I am a noob in blogs,never explored it,so i have no idea how to upload pictures in blogs.Anyway it lags at times when there are just too many pictures.

P.s. Chill la.....Let the past be the past....(You know who you are)

Surprise everyone i just pierced my ears today.Obviously, i would not have done it without the support of Jill,Fern and Sam.So i would like to thank them, of course.

One word to describe the whole process -- PAINFUL!!!! Whoever who tells you that piercing your ears is not painful or it is like an ant bite,are just lying.It is really pain.Jill,Fern and Sam thinks i am just exaggerating,i am acting like a baby,but it is seriously pain wei.Maybe it is because they pierced their ears so long ago,and had forgotten the painful experience.I dont know anything but pain.Ok, maybe i am complaining a little too much, but i have the right to. =p I am the one who got my ears pierced.

My mom was kinda surprised i pierced my ears.She wanted me to get my ears pierced too for my 18th birthday.She was planning to get ear rings for my birthday.This was the exact words she said: i quote : Big girl already unquote...I feel old now. =s

*If you want to know more about the piercing process, feel free to contact Jill.She recorded the whole scene. And jill I want a copy too...

Do i talk fast?A lot of people say i talk quite fast.

This was the comment from my english teacher on my presentation:
1. Talk too fast (well i was nervous)
2. It was rather mechanical, it looked like you memorise it (well, i did!=s i dont want to come and present and get stuck halfway)
3. My discussion was quite abrupt. (No comment!I just wanted it to end quick)
4. Discussion was good! (Thank you! I am proud of it, at least.)

It was a 17/20. i wont ask for more,seeing her high expectations.Then i think in my class, it was quite high already.