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Today, I felt like I was just whacked in the face, asking me to wake up, no more day dreaming. I just realize my exam marks are not as good as I think it is. I found out that I need to start working hard; no more last minute crap or I’ll be the next crap. When I got back my Biology paper 3 today, I failed the bloody paper. I was shocked and sad, loads of things started running through my mind. What the hell happen to me? All i can say is i was disappointed.*sigh* And somehow i had an idea what was coming out for that paper,the only few tips i had. My Biology teacher demanded a good explanation from me. What can i say? I wanted that marks? NO! I had none, even i can even explain to myself, let alone to her. We had a little talk on my paper though.

When i went home, I sat in the showers for quite sometime, letting the water flow, waiting for the tears to flow, but it didn't. The sadness was there, but the tears aren't flowing. Then it hit me, am i lazy and just not working hard enough? Or the last few exams was just plain luck,and i scored well in it? Or this is my limit,i am that dumb? Only a few people in mind can tell me this, but i am not even sure whether they know it or not.

Checking through my other papers was not comforting at all. Seeing all the stupid and dumb mistakes i made just makes me feel like kicking myself hard. When did i become so careless? My marks deteriorated this time. Maybe Jess was right, it is time for us the step down.

I would like to announce the most tiring and hectic week has just came to an end.Thanks to some people's smartness,they have to put this 2 important event,the anual Teachers' Day and must0have Prefects Gathering,a day after another.Making it two different events, two performances,two prizes,two sets of foods and two games to cope with.Someone said,"This shows how desperate we are to have a Prefects Gathering".Yes,i agree,we are desperate,very desperate,making it after the Teachers' Day.Didnt they ever think how hectic this week would be?Maybe they did,thinking it would be managable,but *sigh*,they werent thinking for some people too.I'm glad with made through this whole week,without much disappointment,but with loads of frustration,tension and stress,not forgetting the fun,excitement and enjoyable moments.It was a week of very jumbled up feeling.The ups and downs came together,but im proud to say,"The Senior Prefectorial Board did a good job",three cheers to all of you.

It was 12.30 and we were giving out the prizes for the winners.The closing ceremony was being held and i was relieved and happy.The tiring week has came to its end.We ended with Negaraku,a dance which i went wild,spraying people with my water gun,which ended up with me being drenched,and the photo section,which the CBNers got insulted,saying we were short and we should sit in front.Then we started packing up and cleaning up until 1 something.When i just wanted to enjoy this moment,someone shattered it for me.Thanks by the way for makinig this moment just vanished,*poof* gone,can you let me enjoy,celebrate and rejoice this moment for a very TIRING week.The person had to say,"Next week is Hari Anugerah Cemerlang".Yes,being plan-co head,i have to look forwards toward five most important event of my Prefect Life,that is,Everybody's Day(over),Sports Day(done),Teachers Day(finishto),Prefects Gathering(a success) and last but not least, Speech Day(Hari Anugerah Cemerlang).*sigh* Dude give me a break,this week was not a easy week.

Teachers Day was,in point of view,was a little screwed up.Our performances sorta didnt got too well,but what Jill heard was rather comforting,at least people didnt think we sucked.Or were they just being nice and trying comfort us?*sigh* The games was before the performances.All i can say is you are not dependable.When i told Pn Khor she was in the games,her face just said one word,"Shocked".She was tellling me she didnt know she was in and she didnt bring any clothes to change into.At 10.45am,was the briefing session,we had to announce the students and teachers name,asking them to come to stage.The amount of shockness on the teachers face told me someone didnt do their job,or she just couldnt care less.None of the teachers brought clothes to change,they had to wear their beautiful clothes to play.Lucky for me,i never planned anything exhausting,or else.....But the games was fun.The other side of the teachers,which are not seen usually,appeared.The competitiveness,the craziness and the fun side of them came out.I was laughing most of the time during the games.It was enjoyable,seeing the teachers competing,shouting their heads off and squezzing three of them into a hullahoop.*hehe* The look on Ms Anyusha face was priceless,when i told her that this guy teacher,Encik Noramalis,for those who dont know who he is,he is the guy "married to Pn Sue",good luck to him with that.She was like,"WHAT!!!Dont let him",but unfortunately he was on his way already.I know you will say im mean,but i didnt chose him,Pn Norazma did.The other team was saying,"That team sure lose one la".I couldnt agree less,he is ,well,rather big.I couldnt help but laugh when i saw his face when he knew he had to squeeze into a hullahoop with 2 other teacher,Pn Azura and Ms Anyusha.But he was rather sporting and agreed.At the end,Ms Anyusha team didnt win,but they weren't last,Yee Siew's team was disqualified,and they were rather close to the winning team too.Pn Khor's team emerged as winner.When she reached the finish line,she started jumping up and down,like a little girl. who just won something and got loads of candies.She was so cute,jumping and hoping and clapping her hands.I couldnt help but laugh.Then she starting jumping and hopping back to the starting line,then it hit me,all the teachers are barefooted and the floor was bloody hot.Pity the teachers.Then i ran up stage,the "Tie the balloon"was on.I went up and whoa,chaotic,i quickly ran and sat on the prefcts table.I saw Jill doing the same thing.Yikes.Danger zone.I could see all the prefects avoiding the participants.It was rather comical seeing them,trying to stomp on each other balloon.I saw the curtain not open,and I quickly shouted,open the curtain.And it was a hit.Tee hee.

Waking up at 5.45 after a hectic Teachers' Day was painful.I pratically had to dragged my aching body out of bed,and into the shower.I went to school,assuming i would be the earliest,but i was the 3rd earliest which doesn't sound comforting anyway.I had to shout my lungs out to make the prefects carry the bench for the games.When i told them they had to carry it to the college field,their jaws dropped.It was a good morning exercise,undeniable.We managed to get it done though.Then the registration was open.People started coming in.When someone told me that there were only 88 prefects,it was my turn for my jaw to drop.Bloody hell,they made me carry so many benches and prepare the stuff then they don't come.Screw them.Overall it was a successThe dance battle turned out to be just a dance performance which didnt go too well.The songs were all jumbled up.During the song,'She Wants To Move',was so messed up.Some people just simply changed their places,and the steps kept changing,i dont even know the steps at the end.We were squished at the end,and Sam was pushed to the end and couldnt move at all.What a disappointing performance.The Indian dance,no idea how to spell,"Bangra",was nice.The best among all.Everyone enjoyed it.When we were performing the Dikir Barat i couldnt help but laugh the whole way.No idea why.Hehe.I am just going to pick a few of my favourite verse and write it down.

(Gong Xi)
Jessica memang garang,
Suka marah Orang,
Tapi dia bertanggungjawab,
Memang boleh diharap,
Itulah Jessica kita,naib kapten kedua.

(Doraemon)
Lisa Lau dan Samantha,
Mereka berdua kawan,
Mereka dua suka asyik berchi chi zha-zha

(Full house)
Tak kurang juga si Jill dan Lavi,
Mereka berdua sangat suka menari,
Kadang-kadang sampai lupa diri,
Siapa sendiri.

(Dragostea)
Daphne Hee,Janice Ong oh,Mak See Mun ah,Adibah ha.
Semuanya comel-comel,bucuk2,manja2.

Fiza-fiza,Hanim-hanim,Farah-Farah,
Tiga-tiga,gila-gila,bola jaring,netball fever.

During the games part,it was fun watching the particiapnts.They were wrecking their brain trying to solve the Traffic Jam.Hehe.Was fun seeing them cracking their brain.What a saddist?Can't help it.Then was the outdoor obstacle,they were worst.Putting the string so low,the participants had to crawl under with their leg tied.And smashing their face in to the plate of flour.Haha.The dodgeballon was fun too.Until CBN prefects started throwing the balloon from the form 5 corridor,it was suppose to be kept for later,but some people throwing it too.Not only that,even the pails were bungee jumping.Till now i still don't know which pail went the jump,as they are 2 pails missing,dark red in colour,Jess's and Sam's one.There was so many light red pails on stage.Luckily no one got hurt in the bungee jump.*phew* The saddest part was i took the trouble to get the balloons ready but i didn't get to throw any.Sad.The funnest part was the group dancing.I went wild and started shooting everyone with my water gun.Of course,i asked Pn Norizan first,i wanted to attack the prefects and they were so near her.And without a hustle she agreed.I just went crazy,shooting everyone i see.Then suddenly someone shouted,catch her.yikes,i had to run,but failed.There were so many of them,someone snatched my gun while someone hold me.Nooo......Doomed.If i was not wrong,JILL snatched my gun and started shooting me,while the others were holding.Big bullys *hmph*.So many against one.Then i felt a all drenched up,someone poured a bottle of water on me.And i have no idea who was the culprit,wait till i find out who was it,you are so gonna get it.

There was so many gentlemen.They helped us to packed,cleaned and carried the benches,tables and chairs.So nice of them.I was so tired and groggy and the end of this event.I was glad and happy.Getting the prefects to carry the benches would be harder than asking them to clean.Everyone was just too tired.The guys helped us to carry all of it.They were carrying one each,i was like whoa and we needed to two prefects to do the job.They also helped us to clean the hall,packed the chairs,sweep and mop.You don't see this everyday.Sam got alittle pissed off with some of the prefects though,when we were shifting the tables from the art passage to the form 4 block.Jill,Mon and i were drenched,when it started pouring.I was kinda pissed with them too.

Overall,the prefect gathering was a success.The feedback we had was comforting and really good.The prefects had a great time,and i had a feedback from the prefects,saying that the gathering was worth every cents they spent.Cool.

Great job,Senior Prefectorial Board of CBN.Hooray!I would just like to say thanks to everyone who helped me.Without your contribution it would all be a mess.Even though to you it was a minor contribution,but to me,without you all,nothing will go right.So just accept the credit given to you,you deserve it.Thanks to Nisha,Fatimah,Wai Ling for the backdrop,Jessica for buying the stuff,Aliaa for the Teachers' day games,Sasha,Jill,SamFarah,Daph,Carmen,Nabile,Plan-co and Dis-co member for their help.Couldnt have done it without you all.

Sometimes i wish i could just become a selfish and ignorant bitch.Seeing how the others seem to get away with everythying,doing nothing and dumping the job to other people while they just look on and relax.I wish i could be like that.The load of burden just seem the get heavier,more and more things keep decking on top,making a pile already.I'm drowning,suffocating,trying to survive,keeping a clear and cool mind,making sure everything will go well.WILL go well.Seeing as things are,it is not going well at all,everything is going wrong.And you have to give an extra stab,making make things worse.I know you have your responsibilities,but everything you do,theres a limit.Fine,people in our point of view there are no limits but you should think about the others.I am trying to plan everything and get everything done.But instead of helping,all you can do is complain,comment and criticize.If you want to make a comment fine,but please come with an idea too,or else just please keep you opinions to yourself,you are not helping at all.By just saying is not going to get everything done,will it?Ordering and commenting is not the only thing you can or should do.

Thanks Sammi,i needed to blow of some steam.I was like a ticking bomb,ready to explode.Although i know you are quite down yourself,trying to cope with whatever is happening.Thanks loads.Really appreciate it.

Sam was lamenting i didnt blog for a very long time,asking me to blog.I have no idea why?The blogging fever for me has gone,no mood to blog recently,either cause im just in no mood or the feeling are so jumbled up,i dont feel like bringing it up at all.But since i said i was going to blog i might as well spill the beans.

Ever walk into a class,wait not class,school?Too exaggeratting.Hmm...How about a bunch of approximately hundreds of NERDS?To say people in my school call me nerds,whoa,they never see a real one.=p The sccene was just freaky.Well,mostly because i go to a school where there are less nerds,way less.I was actually glad that government school are born,where the people are more versatile.When i reached there and walked into that gathering court,i was like,"Yikes,freaky"Quickly ran to my place and satr down,scanning through the area for people actually i know.The first thing that ran through my head is that there would not be anyone from CBN,sad,seeing,as they would say,i am the nerd,so i was actually scanning for my primary ex-school mates,seeing that they are the people who are interested in this kind of crap.Strike one,i was right,there was no CBNer but i bumped into my ex primary school mate.She used to be a close friend of mine.She make me miss my primary school time,where everything is just so easy,and relaxexd,most of all trouble-free.Life was much simple then,and you need not to worry about the consequences.Back to the examinaion.I found out i have a rather low IQ.*sigh* Something i can live with,i hope.The Maths paper was the easiest among three,but it was defintely not easy.My jaw dropped when i saw the first question.Nevertheless,it was the easiest,seeing that my English went down the drain,and i never saw the last of it.Screw this test thats all i can say.

Tomorrow is the audition and we are rushing to get the performance into one piece to,at least,make it presentable.The co-operation we are getting are just terrible,the screams,shouting were heard,yet some people can just be so ignorant,they just could not careless.And when we do not participate them in the dance,they would just go snitch on us,and tell-tale to our Heads.Whats is wrong with you?Skipping the practice during the whole holidays,we can ignore.If you dont want to participate,fine.But if you do,just get your ass moving and do something for god sake.The steps are not difficult if you make an effort.Theres this proverb,which im not that sure about,goes like this,"Lazy people find excuse,but hardworking people actually find a way,a solution."*sigh* Hope tomorrow everything goes well.Imagine what the teachers would think what we show them our performance,this convinces them more that we are actually the worst batch.Nothing can be said or done now,but wait for tomorrow and see how everything goes tomorrow.

Nonethless,i have to give credit to Jilly,my sweety.Choreographing is not an easy job and she did a good job.Better than good,a wonderful job.Her moves are just cool.Some people might think it is a little fast,but when you get the hang of it,it can be a little slow.*hehe* And when everyone just do it coordinatedly,the outcome is splendid.So three cheers for Jilly.*Hip hip hooray* x3 Hope i do not spoil or wreck your cool moves.

*deep in thoughts*

Sometimes i feel im such a bitch,asking people to do stuff when people are reluctant.I have no idea why.Is it because indirectly i feel i am responsible somehow or another?Or it is because i am just a plain bitch?In fact,as i know,it is a part of my reponsibility,but somehow not.I am confused.To everyone,i apologised for being such a pain.=s

Whee

Whee,at last something happy after so many depressing and stressing posts.This is the only one actually,if you noticed.I got a new handphone,although it is not as nice as jill's and sam's but i'm happy with what i have.As Sam said,'beggars are no choosers',so i shall just comfort myself with that.Disappointingly the phone have no bluetooth,but what the hell,soemthing is better than nothing as they always say.I hope everyone have infared.=s Well,i dont wanna complain much,i though among everyone i change my phone most frequent.When i got my handphone from form 3 until now, i have changed,estimated,around 4 handphones,slowly upgrading.=p Rich brat?Nay.It's just people keep passing down handphones.

At last,i felt a relief in the Teachers' Day and Prefect Gathering planning.At least i think so.The games are planned,food done,planning almost complete and most importantly the performance is really chun(Jill dont kembang ya) We will make Pn Siva,"Memorable opening" come true.Whee! Not only that,make Pn Siva "couldnt care less Prefect Gathering" a memorable one too. I'll just wait for everything to fall into place when school reopen but seeing as always the fall into place would end up fall into pieces.So *sigh* hopes everything goes smoothly.

*The reply of schools is not very good,hope it is because they forgot or whatever.

One word-Frustration

All of a sudden,i just feel that i hate scrabble so much.Not exactly hate,just in no mood anymore.Maybe it is thanks to this someone,maybe i just dont,cant or shouldnt play this game.Although some people say i am "quite good" at it,but i think i am just no good in it.Maybe it is a sign,playing scrabble is just a waste of time.It is just to let some people have the excitement of thrashing someone with much pleasure and fun.

I HATE it when people sort of agreed to do something but can keep to what they promised.Fine,it was not promised but they didnt exactly "no".If you dont want to then just say a no or i dont want.Is it that hard?You have to make me go through the trouble and keep persuing the matter,and you will keep procrastinating the matter till heaven knows.And you will divert the matter,ignore me and just give stupid "excuses" which it is just plain dumb or absurd.Does my forehead write "I'm dumb" or what?